Day 21 of ‪#‎50DaysofChange‬

“Don’t light yourself on fire trying to brighten someone else’s existence.”

It all started with a stupid joke. “ok lo! then i don’t send you snaps anymore lo~!” I was actually joking, pretending to be angry, and the listener chose to take offence. But I was joking. I made it worse when I abruptly ended the call upon reaching my workplace, ….and didn’t even know someone was angry at me the entire day.. until work ended.

What hurt the most was that I expected people close to me to know by now that I’m usually not serious, and I don’t get angry over minor things. I wouldn’t have expected acquaintances to know me – but loved ones? Ouch. I didn’t find this ‘fight’ necessary. Something that began with a good intention to make people laugh that got everyone feeling unhappy about the entire miscommunication.

So what should I have done better? I hate the fact that I did not live up to what was “expected” of me. Confrontations all begin with a gap in expectations, and a pressure to improve for the better.

“Next time, You should watch what you say and consider how I may react towards it. But it doesn’t mean you have to joke less. Just be yourself. But remember I can also be sensitive.”

No doubt I’ll try. but you don’t expect a leopard’s spots to change. But I always believe that when something no longer makes you happy (or fails your expectations), you can choose to walk away from it.

Love the song in the video so much…
“I am a creature of habit. I move in circles around you. I will admit there’s a pattern… one I’ve created myself.”

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