So I just had to recap on what happened in 2012 that made it wonderful. It wasn’t smooth sailing at all, but I think I choose to remember what I want to perceive it to be. It’s been quite a year…
LoveByte began with nothing, just Steve and I having discussions at Bishan library. I still remember when I first started picking the designs for the couple profile page, drafted on the back of unused namecards.
To be honest, the mascot is something I’ve been doodling in class since secondary school – and I remembered a teacher saying it looked ‘creepy’, guess what… Turns out many people love it 😛
Months later, we entered open beta and received funding so we could expand. We are soon expanding to a team of seven. The journey has been amazing – it’s both exciting and stressful at the same time, but I’m still enjoying it and that’s what matters! I can’t be more thankful for an awesome team. We had our Christmas party at our new space last week and had so much fun. I think I can cry tears of gratitude. Major highlight of the year.
This was a particular goal I set for myself that I thought I wouldn’t see through. Finally got my manual license on my second attempt. and I was lucky. Lessons were painful. My instructor shouted at me and I cried. I’ll admit I’m a coward when it comes to driving so I kinda dislike it. Though I believe I will get better with more practice… I’d rather let someone control the vehicle and I use the time to rest or think… Anyway, PASSED! Moving on!
Being more active
Few months ago, I picked up yoga as it was offered in the workplace. Best part was, I get to do it during lunch hours! I definitely see myself being stronger. Now I can hold longer for the poses that I couldn’t during the first few attempts. It’s sooooooooo fun! And I also discovered blogilates.
Because I was exercising, I started eating more heathily since I didn’t want my efforts to go waste. I was more conscious of what I ate. To a certain extent that I pissed my friends off, because it’s hard to order anything healthy when you’re outside, and often I didn’t want to finish a main course on my own, they felt that I was being a party pooper… It’s really disappointing because it’s so hard to lose the weight, even though I already feel the muscle gain, I still weigh the same. And having friends who don’t understand this pain really doesn’t alleviate the problem. Now I hope they will! 😛
The downward spiral
I didn’t realise how traumatised I was after several months of the event. I kept wondering if it was my fault, or did I just meet a toxic person who didn’t know a better way to handle things. (Ok it’s easier to put the blame on myself. But oh well, heard that she’s giving the same treatment to even more people now.) Then when the new changes weren’t really much better, it just seemed that things kept going downhill. I was so unhappy and stressed that I had a really bad breakout, which made things worse. I distanced myself from people for a while because there was simply no motivation to do anything at all.
I had no idea how to make myself feel better. It was probably the lowest point in my life; I felt I had hit rock bottom again. I don’t really know how I got out of that mess – watching Running Man must have helped. Anyway, luckily it’s over now!
Matters of the heart
I realised that marriage is the most important decision you will ever make in this life.
It’s all in the mind…
I see many things differently now; not sure how I did it, not sure if it’s a good or bad thing. Things I used to believe in or perceive, now seem to take a different meaning. it means that I am more open to considering others’ views. It’s fun. At the same time, I’m scared I’ll lose sight of what I firmly believed to be right and wrong.
Happiness: a priority…
“The Happiness Project” – I never really began working on any project in particular. But I’m glad this year made me more aware of how I felt. I really just want to be happy most of the time. The law of attraction. I don’t have much space for negative thoughts anymore (I don’t really care what others think… about me or my ‘bo geh’ haha :P), except for some crazy thoughts now and then. One day I believe I’ll be comfortable with myself, and that I am better than who I perceive myself to be.
In the meantime, I just want to go to sleep happy and be able to give thanks for all the things in my life every night. I’ve been doing that for the whole of December, and I’m just thankful to be surrounded by awesome friends, family and colleagues (and omgomg my BOSS!). Some of them must be angels in disguise. Special shout-out to the amazing peeps who made bad days bearable: Jeslyn, Elaine, Jacky, Marvin, Javian, Joshua, Cassandra, Huimin and Hee!
On the whole, 2012 was pretty good. I lost a few things, but also learned other valuable lessons. There will be some getting used to in the new year.
Speaking of which, here are some things to change for 2013.
- Learn to cook dishes.
- Get out of my comfort zone more often. (Like learn to love running…)
- Spend less time at the computer. Take more walks.
- Keep loved ones close. Hear more stories from different people.
- Collect experiences, not things. (Less shopping.)
- Travel to 3 new places!
- Volunteer again.
- Be proactive. Get a mentor. Ask for help if needed.
- Start a side project – scrapbook of “Being Amelia” listing all my idiosyncrasies and life being an oddball (hahaha idea only)
- Converse in Cantonese & Korean
- Practise mindful meditation – live in the present.
- Be more open minded. Hang out with diff kinds of people.
- Give more, help others achieve their goals.
- Lead better – be humble and inspire others.
- Write often in my “One line a day” book.
Looking forward to an awesome 2013. Here we go! Let’s work hard and play hard everyone.